Grieving Faith

I was raised in black Baptist and African Methodist churches. My grandparents’ Carolina Christianity migrated with them to Washington D.C. As they ambled around the kitchen preparing dinner or in the alley side herb garden, they hummed hymns under their... Read more →

Becoming New

Every time I experience a depressive episode, something dies. Sometimes I have lost things I would have preferred to keep – a sense of hope, a faith I recognize, friends, ideals about relationship, a secure understanding of myself. Other times,... Read more →

Mental Health is Physical Health

It hit me all at once as a new psychiatrist laid out my options before me. I knew the drill. New doctor, long intake appointment, re-tell my story with craziness, get a diagnoses that may or may not match previous... Read more →

Slippery Slope

I didn’t know it was depression until I couldn’t feel the happy. That is, I had really good news and nothing about it felt good. I know, intellectually, that it is good, but I don’t feel happy. Sure my therapist... Read more →

Not Hiding

I like rituals. I like sacraments. Those rituals we think of as being holy. The ones that point us towards God. Baptism. Eucharist. Weddings. Foot-washing. Penance. Ordination. Anointing. Altar prayers. I love it all. Not because I am sure that... Read more →

ordinary saints

“It was a boy,” April says. The woman cries in Jackson’s arms, as they mourn the knowledge that their unborn child has been detected with an incurable disease. Before I can exhale, I start to sob. I bite my lip,... Read more →

Failure or Adaptation?

2014 contained many surprises and challenges for me. I blogged bit about them here and here. I wanted to write more. I wanted to share with my online community because you all are so often a source of encouragement and... Read more →

Lenten Reading Group

Lent is one of my favorite seasons in the traditional Christian calendar. In early Christian communities, new converts to Christianity were often baptized on Easter Day.  Lent was the 40-day season before Easter when they learned more about their faith and... Read more →

Grief is not Depression …

Many writers say that depression is like grief, but deeper, longer, worse somehow. “Depression is grief out of proportion to circumstance,” says National Book Award winner, Andrew Solomon in Noonday Demon: an Atlas of Depression. I’ve always doubted that somehow. I... Read more →